Tuesday, January 31, 2006

Fever's Dream

Fever's Dream

There are shining fires
In the trees
The dog howls
At a computerized moon
When the fires go out
The sacrifice escapes
Running into a Gothic
Maiden's arms
She speaks a flowing torrent
Of words
Trite and vapid poetry
That is still beautiful to my lovesick ears
A response is attempted
Until she becomes two other people
One is a movie extra
From a favourite cult musical
The other a lingering grade school flame
They draw near
Hands on each other's shoulders
Until conciousness returns
and I stare up at the dim white
Plaster sky above my scattered wits
Realizing that I am
Real

Tuesday, January 17, 2006

Obsession

Obsession

Trust me
Trust me
I won't hurt you
You'll feel better
Believe me

You know I will win
I will crush you
Into a babbling lunatic
Unless you give in to me

You know you want me
You know your fear cannot help you
But I can
Trust me
Little girl
Trust me
Let me in

I'm hungry little girl
Let me feed on your flesh
You don't need it anymore

I'm thirsty little girl
Let me drink of your blood
You don't need it anymore

Trust me little girl
I can make the pain stop
I can help you
But you have to trust me

Hold on to me little girl
I won't let you fall

You know you want me
You know you need my help

You know
And I know
Don't try to lie to me
It won't work

It's cold outside little girl
Let me in.

Monday, January 16, 2006

You Don't Know

This is dedicated to a girl I used to know.

You Don't Know

You don't know how much I loved you
You don't now how much I hated myself for loving you
Why you, of all people
But I gave up trying to rule my heart long ago

You don't know how much I hated you
Hated you for charming me
With your talent and beauty
You don't know how much I loved you for it
And hated myself for being so weak

You don't know how much I hated myself
For being the wrong half of the species
I couldn't blame you for anything
It was my fault

You don't know how much I loved you
How much I wrote of you
How I poured my blood into my pen to write you another
Tortured love song

You don't know
And it is probably better
This way

You
Don't
Know

Tuesday, January 10, 2006

Klavier

Inspired by a song of the same title.

Klavier

She sat at the piano, silently, immobile. Her long fingers, turned white by isolation and cold rested uncertainly on the dusty keys. She was young, but seemed as if she had felt pain beyond her tender years. Her clear eyes were thrown starkly into shadow by the single guttering candle as she stared down at her hands. Slowly, she began to play. Her song was a simple one, the notes flowing like a tear, slowly, but always there, always flowing. The song caressed the air with its gentle melancholy as the room grew darker. Her body curled in upon itself, her long black hair casting its shadow across her face, lined by pain more then time. As the song died away, the tears, which had started gently, flowed in a silent torrent down her face, falling softly on the keys of the shadowed piano.


Unbeknownst to her, a stranger had watched her as she played. The stranger watched through the dingy window as the girl's song ended and she began to cry. The stranger, a woman hardly older than the girl, watched in silence, wishing to comfort the girl without knowing why. The girl raised her head and gazed out the window. As her blue-green eyes widened in shock, the stranger ducked out of sight. The girl rose, crossing to the window and pulling it open. The stranger cowered beneath the sill, curled in a fetal position. The girl reached out the window into the night, placing her hand on the shoulder of the stranger. The girl took her hand, helping her step through the window. Their eyes met. The girl's were a soft blue-green colour, like the sea, calm, but flaring with a tempest if roused. The stranger returned her gaze with eyes like midnight, soft and dark. They drew closer together, each not knowing why, neither of them understanding. Suddenly, they stopped, eyes still locked, and the stranger spoke for the first time. "Klavier." The girl nodded, and her eyes again filled with tears. The stranger reached out, brushing away her tears, as the girl drew her breath in sharply. She reached up to the stranger's hand, grasping it as one grasps a faltering straw in the maelstrom. The stranger spoke again. "Who are we?" "I..I don't know." faltered the girl. "We are the musicians of a twisted and terrible god, we are the castrati, the fools. We are nothingness." spoke the stranger. The girl gasped, releasing the stranger's hand and sitting down on the piano bench. Her eyes gazed into the stranger's with fear and hope and an uncertain love. She stood, as if in a daze, and pulled the stranger closer to her. Their lips met as the last bomb fell, the last sacrament of a twisted and terrible god. As they lay in the rubble, this stranger and this girl, they heard the dusty piano keys crack as the giant instrument toppled. They whispered to each other, as they lay dying. "Klavier...".